The first mystery isn't much of a mystery at all, it's more of a question, but don't all mysteries begin as questions? Today, I am stuck. I don't know what to do or not do. As smart as I may or may not be, it has taken me a very long time to figure some things out. Recently, things have been becoming clear in waves of understanding and still, I am in a logjam.
My neighbor, who has been very kind and welcoming to me the first year that I was in Colorado, has taken to pretending that she doesn't see me. I asked her once, if she was mad at me, and she replied, "A little." So, I dropped her a sweet note apologizing for my offense while admitting that I was uncertain of what my offense had been, but recognizing her kindness and generosity towards me. I have had no reply, so here's the mystery of the day.
When you invite someone to tell you how you have offended them, and they do not respond- are you under any social obligation to follow up in some other way? I have never been much of a groveler, and have no desire to start now but I wonder if I am too willing to let myself off of the hook entirely. If, in fact, I should do something else about it, what should it be or should I continue my current position of dropping the whole matter from my consciousness because if they don't care to tell me then why should I analyze every interaction we've ever had to determining whether or not I have done something to make her a "little bit" angry, and if this is a little angry shouldn't I just be grateful that I didn't really piss her off because that must be quite ugly.
Feel free to give me guidance, humor or insight. Assuming that somehow, someone has found this blog.
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